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Sophie Turner Reveals She Contemplated Suicide Over Trolls’ Negative ‘Game Of Thrones’ Comments

Actress Sophie Turner opened up about mental health issues in her family during an interview with Dr. Phil in his podcast, Phil in the Blanks.

The 22-year-old plays Sansa Stark on HBO’s Game of Thrones, which she has been a part of since the fantasy series began filming in July 2010, when she was 14.

Comments about her weight and criticism of her acting on social media took a toll on the impressionable then-teenage actress and said it was a catalyst for her depression.

“I would just believe it. I would say, ‘Yeah, I am spotty. I am fat. I am a bad actress.’ I would just believe it. I would get [the costume department] to tighten my corset a lot. I just got very, very self-conscious.”

“I’d be concerned about angles, I’d be concerned about face. I have a big nose, I don’t know how to angle myself, and it would just affect me creatively.”

“I couldn’t be true to the character because I would be thinking about Sophie.”

Her decision to choose her career and live at home with her parents instead of going to University with her friends exacerbated her feelings of isolation and lack of motivation.

“I had no motivation to do anything or go out. Even with my best friends, I wouldn’t want to see them, I wouldn’t want to go out and eat with them.”

“I just would cry and cry and cry over just getting changed and putting on clothes and be like, ‘I can’t do this. I can’t go outside. I have nothing that I want to do.'”

Although she admitted she could never hurt herself, Turner admitted of contemplating suicide when her depression became prevalent when she was 17 and didn’t understand why.

“It’s weird. I say I wasn’t very depressed when I was younger, but I used to think about suicide a lot when I was younger. I don’t know why though.”

“Maybe it’s just a weird fascination I used to have, but yeah, I used to think about it. I don’t think I ever would have gone through with it. I don’t know.”

Turner said is doing better thanks to sessions with her therapist and being on medication. But she still sometimes struggles with her depression.

“I’ve suffered with my depression for five or six years now. The biggest challenge for me is getting out of bed and getting out of the house. Learning to love yourself is the biggest challenge.”

“I’m on medication and I love myself now, or more than I used to, I think.”

Her engagement to Joe Jonas has been a blessing.

“When someone tells you they love you, it makes you really think about why that is. I think it makes you love yourself a bit more.”

Dr. Phil commended the actress on her transparency with mental health issues, saying that she is helping to save thousands of lives in America this year.

“That is absolutely what I hope to be like. To speak about it and be transparent about it. That’s the payoff I would like is for people to not feel so alone and feel encouraged to talk to someone about it.”

If you or someone you know is struggling, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

You can watch the full interview of the Phil in the Blanks podcast in the YouTube clip, below.

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Written by Koh Mochizuki

Koh Mochizuki is a New York-based actor and writer. Originally hailing from Los Angeles, he received his B.A. in English literature and is fluent in Japanese. Disney parks are his passion. Instagram: kohster Twitter: @kohster1 Flickr: nyckmoe