We've all found ourselves worried about our physical appearance every now and then.
From whether or not our hair looks too unkempt to whether or not people like our outfit, we know in the long run that these things won't matter, but still devote an unnecessarily long amount of time worrying.
Some people's insecurities about their looks, however, might stem not from what others might think about their appearance, but instead from what others have said about their appearance.
Making their anxiety all the more crippling.
The teenage daughter of Redditor Fuzzy_Future_2642 found herself the victim of ridicule and bullying from her classmates owing to her appearance.
When her daughter turned to her for help and advice, the original poster (OP) decided to be honest with her daughter, hoping a dose of reality might be just what she needed.
Unfortunately, her daughter's reaction was not exactly what she was hoping it would be.
Having doubts about how she handled things, the OP took to the subReddit "Am I The A**hole" (AITA), where she asked fellow Redditors:
"AITA for telling my 14-year-old daughter that she's average-looking?"
The OP explained how her being honest with her daughter ended up backfiring:
"I (39 F[emale]) have a very insecure daughter (14F) who has a depressingly unhealthy obsession with her looks."
"She often avoids mirrors and pictures because her mood instantly drains when she sees herself."
"She constantly asks her father and me if we think she's pretty and we always tell her the same thing, that she's a beautiful girl inside and out."
"As I understand how most teenage girls are with their body image as I was one at some point myself, my daughter's vanity is not only becoming exhausting to those around her, but I fear it's causing her to slowly lose herself."
"Yesterday, I decided to sit her down to chat with her about this, to discuss what's bothering her, and to see if she's willing to visit a therapist."
"She told me she didn't want to talk about it, but as her mother, of course, I'm going to be worried about her, so I insisted."
"She finally agreed."
"A few minutes into this conversation, she asked exactly this, 'Mom, I want you to be completely honest with me'."
"'That means no sugarcoating'."
"'The kids at my school think I'm ugly and say I look like a bird because I have a big nose'."
"'Do you really think I'm beautiful, or are you just lying?'"
"I'm an honest person, so I gave her the most honest answer I had."
"I told her she was average-looking like most people in the world are, and that it's not a bad thing to have an average appearance."
"She immediately got up and left without saying a word and just went into her room for the rest of the night."
"Today, she has been cold and distant, and I think I upset her, which wasn't my intention at all."
"AITA?"
Fellow Redditors weighed in on where they believed the OP fell in this particular situation, by declaring:
- NTA: Not the A**hole
- YTA: You're the A**hole
- ESH: Everybody Sucks Here
- NAH: No A**holes Here
The OP found little to no sympathy from the Reddit community, who all but unanimously agreed that the OP was, indeed, the a**hole for the way she spoke to her daughter.
Everyone agreed that the OP telling her daughter that she was "average looking" was the absolutely wrong thing to do, as it only exacerbated her body image problems and her bigger concern should have been that her daughter was being bullied by her classmates.
"Congratulations, you probably just created a negative core memory for your daughter."
"She's probably going to carry your words around with her for life."
"YTA."- jasperjamboree
"YTA clearly."
"She is a teenager and these times are vital for self-esteem."
"You essentially told her she was plain."
"You lie to her even if she is."
"This one is probably going to stick for life."- GrogdaTheOrc
"No."
"You're not an honest person."
"For years you've told her she's beautiful and now you're saying 'I was lying'."
"'You're just average'."
"She will now believe you're still lying to cover that she is ugly."
"YTA."- StartigerJLN
"YTA."
"What is it with parents thinking it's okay to tell their kids they're not attractive?"
"Like we all know how a lot of relatives exaggerate how brilliant/charming/attractive we are."
"We take it with a pinch of salt."
"But if we ask, we're asking you because we know we'll get that answer."
"We need affirmation."
"You know she's insecure, so why make her more insecure."
"You are not a therapist, do not try to be."
"Be a mum."- Sloppypoopypoppy
"I barf daily reading about the 'parenting' skills of people."
"How can people be so f*cking obtuse?"
"Why the hell do you have kids, if you aren't going to be their biggest supporter?"
"There is always something beautiful about kids, especially your own."
"Do you think they really want to be told that they are just mediocre and that's ok because most people are?"
"She's 14, kids go through a lot of changes before maturity."
"Many kids who were super awkward as teens are knockouts ten years later."
"You help them grow their confidence, not knock it down."- 421Gardenwitch
"YTA."
"She's showing serious MH signs."
"Taking her to a psychiatrist should already be in the works… not you forcing a discussion you clearly don't have the skills to navigate."
"You just reinforced everything the bullies are saying to her."- MarionBerryBelly
"YTA."
"You can't possibly be so dense that you don't understand that no amount of you saying you are being honest is going to make her believe you are really being totally honest."
"She thinks you will automatically overrate her because you are her mom."
"So, if your overrating calls her 'average', she now believes you think she is ugly and the kids at school are right."- Signal_Wall_8445
"YTA."
"You just said you and her father always tell her she is beautiful inside and out."
"Kudos to you for being an honest person, but this was not the right answer."
"You had the right answer all along and should've told her the same thing, not confirmed her fears."- superdoobiez
"YTA."
"You knew how she would react, she finally agreed to a therapist you told her that her fears are true (in her head)."- Ok_Job_9417
"YTA."
"Beauty is subjective."
"You don't destroy your child's self-esteem."
"Like Taylor Swift says 'casually cruel in the name of being honest'."- cjstarry30
"YTA."
"'I'm not the person to sugarcoat it'."
"That's your daughter & the person who should be hyping her up most is her mother."
"You made her feel 10X worse than the kids at school already do."- Brilliant-Opposite39
"Of course YTA."
"'I'm an honest person' is a weird reason to sit a child down and essentially confirm, in her mind, that you are liars and she is as ugly as the other kids say she is."
"Look. I get why people harp on 'honesty' I guess."
"But this isn't one of your girlfriends asking you for your honest opinion on whether she could be a supermodel."
"It's not even your kid asking if you think he's smart enough to get into Yale."
"This is your child asking if you think she's beautiful while she's being bullied for being ugly to the point where she can't look in a mirror."
"I'm not changing my mind about it."- Shitsuri
"'I sat down my daughter, who is insecure about her looks and clearly needs support and possibly therapy, and told her that even her own mother doesn't think of her as beautiful, because I am willing to make my daughter feel worse about herself and me for the sake of honesty'."
"I don't know if I would still speak to my mother if she did that to me."- grolbol
"YTA."
"Don't even need to read the damn post."
"What's wrong with you?"
"That's your kid, if your response isn't 'you're the most beautiful person in the world to me and nothing could change that' then you're a failure and setting your kid up to hate themselves."
"You set the tone for her self-esteem and you just crushed it.'
"Congrats."- Fenris304
"Read the title of this post again and then see if you still have to ask."
"YTA."- skinamarinkphone
"It sounds like she may have body dysmorphic disorder."
"That is NOT vanity."
"Please get her to a therapist who specializes in such issues to have her evaluated."- MissElphie
They say, "The truth hurts," but the truth doesn't need to hurt quite so much.
The fact that the OP's intentions seemed to be driven more by her exhaustion from her daughter's so-called "vanity" than by the fact that she was bullied by her fellow students seemed to affect her judgment, badly.
One can only hope that the OP might take a moment to reflect on her choice of words, and maybe find her daughter the help she needs.
Not to mention, alert her daughter's school that she is being bullied.
Woman Asks If It's Wrong To Hold Grudge After Mom Told Her When She 8 Years Old That She Wished She'd Aborted Her
While some people view having and raising children as the greatest blessing, some parents hold their children's existence against them for their entire lives.
And when they feel that way about their children, they're unfortunately typically pretty honest about it, cringed the members of the "Am I Overreacting?" (AIO) subReddit.
Redditor heavelymango knew from the time she was young that her mother did not really like her and significantly favored her sister.
But when her mother told her at the age of eight that she wished she had aborted her, the Original Poster (OP) held on to that grudge for years after the fact.
She asked the sub:
The OP had a grudge against her mother.
"I (22 Female) have been holding onto a grudge due to something my mom told me when I was roughly eight or nine years old."
"Growing up, I was a rebellious kid and always felt as if my mom favored my older sister. My sister would always get whatever she wanted."
"I know she was born with Down syndrome and always needed more attention and care, but if my sister wanted my tablet, for example, she would have it for the whole day while mine was limited to 30 minutes so she could have it."
"As a kid, I lashed out more because of this. She could take all of my things, but I could never use hers."
During a heated moment, the OP's mother said something unforgivable.
"Eventually, this led to an argument with my mom. I don't recall the whole thing, but it was related to my sister and how I felt my mom didn't care about me or give me the same amount of attention."
"The fight got heated, and I probably told my mom that I hated my sister and her."
"I remember she said back, 'I never wanted you from the start. I knew I should've aborted you when I had the chance.'"
" I didn't know what aborted meant at the time, and I remember I looked it up, and it made me cry. I never forgot it, and it lingers in my mind whenever I am home."
The OP's mother pressured her to "let it go" and move on.
"Even growing up, I still brought it up, and she would get mad, saying I need to let it go and how I'm stubborn for not just forgetting what she said."
"There was even a time in high school when she took me to a therapist, and she complained about how I never dropped what she said."
"She says I need to move on from it because it has affected my relationship with her, and she wants to fix it."
"I know I'm older now and it was so long ago, but it still hurts, and I feel like it's made me not want to have her in my life in the future, and I have told this to her."
"How I don't want her in my life once I move out, get married, or have my own kids."
Fellow Redditors weighed in:
Some reassured the OP that this sounded like a core memory more than a grudge.
"The axe forgets. The tree remembers."
"It sounds less like you're holding a grudge and more that this is a formative, core memory for you."
"It won't stop being a core memory (unless maybe with the help of a lot of therapy). Has your mom ever apologized for saying that? Because you don't have to forget to forgive, but if she's not remorseful for saying that terrible thing to her young child (not just remorseful that you remember it), then she probably needs therapy (or is a narcissist/sociopath/similar)."
"You are certainly not obligated to 'get over it.'" - Hot-Can3615
"This is not a 'grudge'; it is pain that is still felt to such a degree. If she said it, then she was thinking it. She'll probably never apologize, but that doesn't mean your pain is or was invalid." - Fast_Register_9480
"NOR. This kind of thing needs a real apology. Like she needs to acknowledge the damage and genuinely care about it. Brushing it off won’t make it go away." - TentacleWolverine
"NOR. Did she really want to fix things? She basically just told you to get over it from the start instead of giving you a sincere apology."
"That isn't working on anything. She wants you to get over it so she can pretend that she never said it, so she doesn't have to feel bad about what she did. It doesn't sound like she cares much about how you feel."
"She just doesn't want to deal with it. For that reason, I would still have issues with what she said." - Chemical-Ad6809
"If your relationship with your mother is being affected by the actions of your mother, your mother is responsible for fixing it."
"You should know you probably aren't ever going to get closure, but you don't have to swallow it down. It helps to be the person you needed when you were younger out loud to yourself, but especially to others."
"For example: My name is Liz, and my mom told me to go ahead and do it already and save us all the heartache when I finally had the courage to tell her about how much I've been struggling with self-harm and suicidal ideation. I'm never going to forgive her for that, and we have never been close as a result of her actions."
"You aren't holding onto a grudge; you have a core memory of your mother distilling her feelings into a world-shattering sentence."
"You did not have a secure attachment before and can't have one now because of the deep trauma. You do not apologize for being stabbed."
"Find another therapist. I mean it. Someone who cares about your well-being wouldn't force you to apologize for being verbally abused as a child. I'm 29 now, and I lived through it. I still struggle with suicidal ideation daily, but once I stopped relying on my mom and unstable sources for support, my life got better immediately."
"You want things for comfort and familiarity. Don't let your mom or your therapist gaslight you into crossing a boundary."
"It might help to ask for a written five-part apology from your mom. 1. Acknowledge what you did 2. Say why it was wrong 3. Promise not to do it again 4. Ask how to make amends. 5. Share your feelings at this time if there's anything you'd like to say."
"My mom can be a good person and a bad mom and role model. Being in your own company is so much better than poor company." - PotLuckyPodcast
Others hoped the OP would go no contact with her mother sooner rather than later.
"NOR. It’s emotional abuse. And you do not owe her closeness after that, especially as she refuses to be accountable for that and try to make it up to you."
"She knows you have her number, and she can’t forgive you for knowing what a colloidal b***h she is."
"It’s unlikely that will change; it will at least be turned back on you with her the victim."
"Stop expecting her to apologize. If she doesn’t pay your bills, ghost her." - SnooCheesecakes2723
"My mom said something similar. My brother and I were adopted, and when I was a teen, in front of a church lady, she said, 'We didn't even really want you, but the people didn't want to split y'all up, so we just took you, too.'"
"Me and the church lady were shook. When I say my falbbers were ghasted. Like huh? She didn't remember saying that when I brought it up years after the fact."
"I also got grounded two times for two separate nine weeks (for C's on my report card) and a three and a half to four months (for smoking at 16 and getting caught because she liked to just pop up out of nowhere), and we just had a talk about that, and she didn't even remember."
"She said, 'No, I didn't. I never grounded you for that long,' and when I gave my rebuttal, she said, 'Well, if I did, it definitely wasn't for no nine weeks or months,' and this started because she was praising me for reading so much and liking books. I said, 'Well, when you were grounded like me, that's all I could do (no TV, no friends outside of school, no music, nothing but my room and books)."
"There's a reason I only call or answer her calls once or twice every few weeks. And I only call to get food, really..." - ManicalMoe
"‘Fine, I'm sorry’ is not an apology."
"Whilst I’m sure it was said in anger, most things said in anger have a grain of truth. There are also some things that no half-decent parent ever says to their children, no matter how angry they are, and this is one of them! It also sounds like she has made repeated similar comments of not wanting you as her child."
"I understand her eldest had a disability, but this is no excuse for neglecting and emotionally abusing her younger child. Lots of families deal with a child with additional needs whilst still managing to prioritise their other kids. Children with Down syndrome are capable of understanding ‘that’s your sister's, not yours; give it back’ !! It sounds like your mum has mental health issues?"
"Do you have a present father or other family you can turn to?"
"Protect your peace. Your mum has hurt you time and time again, honestly, for no real gain other than momentarily satisfying her anger. You owe this woman nothing." - Background_Term9810
"I went through something similar. When I was a little girl, my mother used to make comments that implied she didn't want me, though it was never that explicit. 'I only had you because your brother wanted a sister,' and 'My figure never recovered after you; after your brother, it did.'"
"Each comment stayed with me, but I never addressed it with her. I tried to move on and leave it in the past. She did a lot of horrible things throughout my life, but her behavior was always ignored because that's the precedent my dad set, where she can do essentially whatever she wants."
"A few months ago, she came to see me because I was desperate for help and sick. Instead of helping, she made my life so much worse. I won't go into details. At one point, I could no longer keep it inside, and I told her that she is a narcissist, to which she responded with, 'It would have been better if I had never had you.'"
"In some ways, it felt really good to hear her come out and say it. It felt good to hear the truth I've always known."
"I don't know what you should do, but I've chosen to not forgive."
"Every time I forgave, I just let her know that she can get away with whatever horrible things she had done. Her apologies were never real apologies. She always found ways to blame me or others for whatever she had done."
"And I'm truly just done with it. As sad as it is to not have a mom, it's sadder to pretend that you have one when in reality you don't... quite the opposite, if anything." - Neos_Mom
"So, OP, what will hurt more: keeping her and the grudge in your life or making a break and going low or no contact with her?"
"Frankly, we've no idea of what she might have been dealing with at the time, but regardless, what she said was said only to cause pain and suffering. 'Sorry' doesn't magic that intent away."
"Me, I think spending time alone or with friends or in therapy away from her might be what you need here. You might come to some sort of acceptance, but if this is something that's just going to keep coming between you, then stop trying to have that relationship." - Tal_Tos_72
After the OP received feedback, she shared a few clarifications from her original post.
"I wanted to clear some things up, take accountability where it's due, and provide some much-needed context from many people commenting the same questions."
"I want to be completely honest. We had many arguments, and I was a rebellious kid. I acted out and argued with my mom."
"I don't want to give off the impression that I was an entirely innocent kid who never did anything wrong and my mom just snapped out of nowhere. We both said hateful and hurtful things to each other during our fights."
"Growing up, the only way she would accept an apology was if I got on my knees and begged her for forgiveness. If I ever asked her to apologize to me, she would say, 'I have nothing to apologize for; you should be the one begging for my forgiveness.'"
The OP had a lot of physical memories, too.
"Things also would turn into physical arguments, not just verbal ones."
"There were times when she would get so angry she would get physical. Like yanking me by my hair, twisting my arms, or throwing things at me (like remotes, a bug spray can, or a radio)."
"When she yanked my hair, I would fight back just to get her to let me go, and she would scream that I was trying to kill her and she would get me arrested. When she twisted my arm, and I begged her to stop because it felt like it was going to break, she would say she hoped it did."
"When she threw objects at me, she would say she wished they would hit my face."
"I remember in middle school, during an argument, she said she wished she could break my face and that she hated it because I look like my dad. I won’t lie, whenever she said things like that, I would say nasty comments about how she chose to have him put us in her."
While the OP wasn't financially ready to move out yet, she hoped to as soon as possible.
"Why haven't I moved out yet? The main reason I haven't been able to move out is financial."
"I wasn't making enough to support myself without worrying about whether I’d end up having to crawl back home."
"Thankfully, I have recently found a better-paying job. My plan is to move out between mid-to-late October, or early November at the latest."
"The only reason I can't leave this exact second is because I have a few legal/administrative things to get cleared up so I’m completely untied from my mom, which will take a few weeks."
The OP also had proof that her mother liked her sister better.
"Has my mom ever admitted to favoring my sister? Yes."
"In arguments, she has explicitly told me that she doesn't see me as her legitimate daughter, and that she adored my sister more and forever will. She has also called me a 'monster,' told me there is a certain type of evil inside of me, and said she was afraid I would be just like my dad and try to harm them."
"She would even tell me that she was telling family and friends these things about me, but then later claim she 'just said it in the moment' and wouldn't be crazy enough to actually tell people that."
"Because I was so confused growing up and didn't know if she was lying or telling the truth, I started avoiding our family when they came over."
"Naturally, that just made things worse because she would get mad at me for avoiding them (even now as an adult), completely ignoring the fact that she was the one who lied about what she told them."
Unfortunately, the OP didn't have support from her father.
"What about my dad? My dad is not in my life."
"He was around sporadically, but never as a stable parent. My parents separated before I was born and divorced when I was two or three."
"Growing up, it was just constant back-and-forth toxicity, with him telling me how toxic my mother was, and her telling me the same about him."
"He would mostly only come over to see my sister, and often used me to care for her if he wanted to take her out to eat. Ultimately, my dad didn't care about anyone else other than my sister (and his drugs)."
"I hope this can clear some questions on the original post. I know I didn't provide many details as I originally should have. I honestly didn't want to post something too long, and I honestly did not expect it to be noticed."
"Thank you all for taking time to talk to me and share your thoughts."
The subReddit fully sided with the OP, pointing out that no matter how heated the moment was, it would never excuse the terrible things the OP's mother had said to her.
If the OP's mother really wanted a relationship with her, she'd drop the defensiveness and demands, offer a genuine apology, and work hard to be better for both of her children.
That takes a very rare kind of person to pull off, and it didn't sound like the OP's mother had that in her.
If you or someone you know is struggling, you can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 988.
To find help outside the United States, the International Association for Suicide Prevention has resources available at https://findahelpline.com/i/iasp